This is the opening poem from my play, Bend, Don’t Break.
I Said NO!
I can remember like it was yesterday My friend begged me to go with her to her man’s house And honestly I didn’t want to go Something in my gut feeling said no Something told me to go the other way Be a friend tomorrow but not today But she was persistent And she convinced me she needed me And being the friend that I was, I went along It was dark outside Not stormy but dark and cold A winter night not so long ago We laughed and walked As she filled me in on their juicy love stories She made my half entertaining life seem way too boring We arrived safe from harm His house set away from the others I can remember my mother warning me to stay away from there In my mind I said Tomorrow but not today He pulled out a bottled of Vodka. Absolute to be exact. Like I said I still remember like it was yesterday I only took a few sips They had a few more She winked back as they disappeared up the stairs and through a door The radio from upstairs drifted down as I sat quietly watching TV Hoping they would finish soon. As I flipped through the channels another man entered the room “What’s up Red?” He asked as he sat next to me. Nothing. Just watching some T.V. He smiled scooted a little closer. I cleared my throat. Moved away further. He placed his hand on my lap I moved it. Boy, you don’t know me. He smiled wickedly I called her She didn’t answer I called her and she didn’t answer Before I knew it he was on top of me I screamed And fought I said no! And he kept going I fought but he didn’t stop! He tore my clothes My mother was going to kill me! He hit me I scratched him He punched me Unbuckled my pants as he was choking me I blacked out as he entered me I came to fighting for my life Numbing pain enveloped me As he erupted and rolled off of me I ran… Barely covered with only a shirt on I ran blocks with people laughing and pointing Tears streaming My voice silenced from screaming My family surrounded me The police came and took me Sirens wailing Woo woo woo Doctors checked me Counselors comforted me Detectives questioned me My mother… cried from me And now months later they’re telling me I have a child inside of me Excuse Me?! His seed is growing in me I was pregnant and too young to even know it Oh God… There’s a child inside of me and I don’t want it Please please please don’t do this to me He violated me I can’t live with this pain and a child for the rest of my life It’s too late to kill it Mama!!!!… Please make it go away Daddy!!!!… Take this child away Lord get rid of this devil inside of me I told him no and I can still remember just like it was yesterday I told him no I said no And he just kept going. And now there’s a child inside of me And I don’t know what to do with it.